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fear is absolute
numbness envelops me
brain freezes
stops working
just when i need it the most
it deserts me.
hands shaking
teeth clattering
body shivering
i give an involuntary shudder.
my doom is near
it's coming
it's happening
how i hope i'm dreaming.
but, i'm not
i'm wide awake
eyes portray terror
i'm dying
fading into the background
disappearing behind falls of shame
death is here.

i miss the days when i used to be absolutely depressed and could come up with poems like these. lol. funny me. :)

he has a way of making me feel so ashamed of myself.

i've been thinking and i realised that i myself have been childish.

so this post is to say

i'm sorry

to everyone whom i had dragged into my own personal problems.

a masquerade

we all hide behind a mask sometimes.

and sometimes, the masks come off, and we show who we truly are.

when you see me, will you like me then?

Keith,

A brief candle; both ends burning

An endless mile; a bus wheel turning

A friend to share the lonesome times

A handshake and a sip of wine

So say it loud and let it ring

We are all a part of everything

The future, present and the past

Fly on proud bird

You're free at last.

-Charlie Daniels-

i hope you're in a better place now. we miss you...

Can miles truly separate you from friends.... If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?
-Richard Bach-

i wanted to put a picture of all of you (you should know who you are) here. but, i'm just too lazy and not in the mood for picture browsing. it's the thought that counts right?